Dream, dream, dream.

For those of you who are musically inclined, I totally just got that song stuck in your head. You're welcome. You can thank me later.

So last night Tony spoke on dreams at Alpha, and it got me to thinking. He said that you have to let your dream die so that it can be resurrected. I've heard that a lot, and I have really tried to absorb it and live by it. But the thing is, it's hard for me to let things go. I have dreams; big dreams. And to be honest, there are a few things that I have let die because I know that now is not the time.

Worship and revelation Pt. 1

(This is probably going to be several postings long ... there's just too much to say all at once.)

I absolutely love to worship. I think I could stay in the presence of God for hours and not get bored. (Hungry, maybe, but not bored.) I have fought battles and gone through trials to come to where I am in worship, and I think that's why it is so sweet to me. But where I have been isn't the point of this post. This post is to share a revelation that I had in worship this past week; to try and put into words what my brain is having a hard time wrapping around.

Freaking stand in the gap!

I was talking to a good friend yesterday and they said something that really struck me: freaking stand in the gap! That phrase just screams passion and dedication. Do I feel so strongly about Jesus and seeing His name lifted high that I am willing to stand in the gap and intercede with everything I have? Is my desire to see others set free and live in the life that God intended for them so strong that I am willing to do what it takes and pray for them to reach that place?

Apple of My Eye

There's this little man that I love a whole stinking lot. He's half hispanic, a quarter Korean, a quarter Caucasian, and all scrumptious. Yesterday Josiah turned 6 months old and I was so excited to see him and hold him - he's so big! Now I love him and his three cousins like they were my own niece and nephews because 1. I don't have any nieces or nephews and 2. Because I just love them! And this post is not to say that I love him above the rest. But yesterday there was just something special about that boy.

Crocodile Tears

I've heard the story several times in my life, and honestly it makes me laugh. When my parents brought me home from the hospital they apparently made me upset and I started crying. Real, legit tears. They saw these two drops spring up ... and laughed. Apparently a 3 day old infant crying is an amusing sight (especially since it's not supposed to happen for a month or two). They knew that day that I would be a crier. But I don't know that anyone could have predicted how much I would have cried recently. I kid you not, I have cried every day for the past few weeks. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. BUT OH MY WORD. It's like someone turned my tears to the "on" position and forgot how to turn it back off. Honestly, though, I think I have good reasons.

Homework and reading and tests, oh my!

I start grad school one week from today. I haven't been in school for a year and a half. So ... this is slightly intimidating. Why? Well for one thing, the syllabus is scary. I mean seriously, they could have included a monster at the end and I think it would have made the whole thing a little happier. =/

During the course of my undergraduate career I did many things

What a ride ...

What a roller coaster of a ride I have been on recently. The events of my life seem to be spinning out of control ... and yet, I'm closer to God than I have ever been before. In the good times and the bad, I have come to a place where I know that I know that I know that He is worthy of all glory and honor. He has never left me or forsaken me, and I wouldn't be anywhere if He had given up on me.

This past year has been utterly ridiculous. I have held 4 different jobs. I worked at a daycare until March, started David's Bridal under the assumption that I would have anywhere from 20-30 hours a week, and stopped working because they literally had no hours to give me. I then worked at an NPO from April until September, when they shut their doors. I went across the street to another bridal business and that was a nightmare. I only worked there for about a month and a half and I haven't worked there since because they don't have any hours to give me either. And as of now I'm still on the job hunt.