Never stop growing.

FORWARNING: this post is long. Kudos to those of you who can stick through it.

So I kind of want to post a verse of the day like the youversion app, but it would be kind of intimidating. Ready?

Verse of the day: The Bible.

For real. That's what is rocking me right now. A new found love of His Word and all that God is speaking to me. The past several months have been crazy. Coming into this year I wanted something different than before. I wasn't depressed that I'm single, wasn't begging God to show me when He's going to fulfill my dreams. Because quite honestly, I had stopped dreaming.

Over the past year I have grown to love Jesus and love myself but not want to deal with the difficult areas in life. I ran away like I could somehow outrun my problems and they wouldn't catch me. But that's not how life works. And yes, my dreams were sacrificed in the process. Because to pursue my dreams I would have to work through some of those issues in my life. And that's just not comfortable.

At the beginning of this year, though, I decided that it was time to dream again. To stop running, look my problems in the face, and deal with them. There are several dreams I have had: to be a counselor, to lead others on missions trips, to one day be married to a Godly man who I can raise a Godly family with and serve the Lord with. And as a part of serving the Lord with him I want to be able to lead worship with him.

My determination to dream again did not mean that I thought "ok, God, now is Your time to move. I'm ready for you to do something awesome in my life," even though it should have. Instead I decided that it would take several years, but dangit something was going to happen. And it still will take a bit of time for some dreams to really come to pass. But that doesn't mean that God can't take my breath away right now with His goodness.

Last night I got off of work to two missed calls from my dad and a voicemail telling me that he not only needed to use my car but that I owed him money. My first instinct was to think "oh, great. Just what I needed: another bill." So I called him back and asked what it was all about. He said that he was at Goodwill earlier that day and saw a piano for sale. While he was debating over whether or not to "get it for me" (purchase it & then have me pay him back) a guy that worked there walked up and said he would sell it to him for $20, which was half of the asking price. Obviously my dad had to take the deal. When he told me this I was thinking it was a piece of junk, but it isn't! My dad is trustworthy and knows his instruments. He wouldn't spend my money on junk. And it is home waiting for a week before it can be tuned and have some minor repairs done.

So that long story to tell you that God provided two days after He had rocked me with a revelation of His love (which I will post more about later) and I have really begun to feel free. Two DAYS. I have wanted a piano for a long time but thought it would be years. I want to learn to play so much it's ridiculous. I know that I am called to worship and I believe that playing an instrument is a part of that calling.

Earlier today I listened to a teaching by Andrew Wommack about limiting God by not having the correct belief about Him. He loves to give us good gifts. And He isn't limited: He can do ANYTHING He wants, whenever He wants. And if you haven't listened to Andrew Wommack - YOU SHOULD. Especially his messages on the true nature of God. A good friend told me about the messages and I 100% believe that God set that up. He wants me to find freedom in Him!

I could keep going but I'll keep that for another post. But know to never stop dreaming. Even if your dreams have to die for a time it's ok. But never give up on God. He can do so much more than you can imagine! Don't limit what He can do!