Dream, dream, dream.

For those of you who are musically inclined, I totally just got that song stuck in your head. You're welcome. You can thank me later.

So last night Tony spoke on dreams at Alpha, and it got me to thinking. He said that you have to let your dream die so that it can be resurrected. I've heard that a lot, and I have really tried to absorb it and live by it. But the thing is, it's hard for me to let things go. I have dreams; big dreams. And to be honest, there are a few things that I have let die because I know that now is not the time. I really want to be a counselor, yet I can't pursue that calling right now. I don't have the time or money to really go after that like I would want or need to do. But I have faith in God that He put that desire in my heart and He will fulfill it in His time. After all, I've found that my timing is pretty crappy. But in the meantime I have allowed Him to bring the perfect job into my life and I LOVE it.

But there are other dreams that I have; BIG dreams. Some I don't want to share because they're too precious, and others that have yet to be fully developed. And some dreams, as well, I will talk to anyone about. I'm passionate and motivated to live these things out. One of those dreams is to be a speaker/author. Now I realize that to accomplish everything I wish I would either have to be in several places at once, or (gasp!) let God take control. Since time the bugs in developing time warps haven't panned out, I think I'll go with option number 2. (Although I've been seriously considering talking to Steve Urkle ... he seems to know what's up.) I do not think that God would put all of these dreams in my heart just to say "Well, too bad. You'll never get any of them. Nice try, though." So for now I will be content. My method of being a writer/speaker is going to be to very small audiences. I will write on here and speak to my small group of high school girls. It may not be as big as I dream, but it incredibly important.

In God's timing, He'll work everything out. I have multiple testimonies of when I have tried to pursue my dream all on my own. Let me tell you, they all turned out horribly. And then there are times when God has brought me opportunities that I never dreamed of. Literally! Before I got the job, I never dreamed of being an Optician. And yet, I LOVE it! God knows what He's doing.

So all of this to say, trust God. He KNOWS you. He formed you inside and out, and has beautifully created you. Trust that He is good and has only good things planned for your benefit. And if you're going through a season of pruning or of trial, trust God more than you ever have before. You will shine like gold in the end.